Suddenly my schedule is full this month. We have several tandem projects in progress, a mix of real money projects, pro-bono projects, and prospected projects. I'm quite overwhelmed to fit them all into my tight schedule. We have a talk to hire someone to be my assistant, but our financial condition still hasn't stable enough to have such a regular overhead.
Yesterday we had a visit to one of my friend's brother who want to design some promotional materials for his office, a creative consultant. He has been in the business for ten years. We learn some lessons from him, something you wouldn't get at school, stuffs learnt through your street-smart experiences. I'm kind of projecting ourselves to be like him in ten years from now, but, we want to be better than him, of course, though our current condition still have a long way to go to be settled.
One of our client, an advertising agency called us yesterday. We used to do an annual report for them, except this year when the financial turmoil happens. They offered us a layout job for a newsletter for their client. Unfortunately, the price didn't meet our expectation. Since we are pretty packed right now, we don't want to lower our price. It's the second time we declined their project because of the fee.
This week my hubby called one of our clients, asked about his long delayed projects and payments. He has several on going projects deals with us, most of them are the book projects. The down payment usually comes pretty easy, paid before the job was started. In the beginning of this year we worked hard for him so he can display his books on this big exhibition. Actually, we don't have to be in this rush if he didn't disappear for months before. But, with a good will, we successfully fulfilled our promised on time. However after the exhibition, he again disappeared for months, didn't answered our calls or our messages, left us with unfinished deals and payment. Last week he suddenly appeared, again to ask for a hurry finishing.
We don't like the way his doing in business, unable to be relied on time and responsibility matters. That's why my husband asked for a full payment for the unfinished jobs so incase he dissappears again, it won't matter for us. Beside that, we think if he already paid the jobs, he would be more committed to the projects. Honestly, it's flashed in our mind that he's possible to be a little bit shocked or snapped asked for a full payment while the jobs still haven't finished yet. But we think, it's a price if you can't hold others's trust. It's nothing personally, it's just business.
In the middle of this projects buzz, I'll strive to compile our portfolios for our marketing tools. One of our biggest mistake is we never promote our services. How can people hire you if they even don't realize that you're exist?
Friday, May 29, 2009
Tuesday, May 12, 2009
Color Quiz Result
Your Existing Situation
Feels there are barriers between herself and the essential things she desires.
Your Stress Sources
"Needs to meet people who have the same high principals and values as himself, but finds the need unfulfilled. her need to feel dominate and superior leaves her feeling isolated and does not allow for her to give freely of himself. she would like to surrender and let go, but sees that as a weakness she must not give in to. Holding back will allow her to stand out for the crowd and earn a higher status, recognized by others as unique and important."
Your Restrained Characteristics
Giving more than she is getting back and feels misunderstood and unappreciated. Feels she is being forced into compromising and even her close relationships leave her feeling emotional distant. His arrogance causes her to take offense quickly. Only those closest to her know deep down she is sensitive and sentimental.
Your Desired Objective
"Seeking an escape from the things that are bringing her down, but is clinging to false hopes and pipe dreams."
Your Actual Problem
"Feeling unimportant in this current situation, and is looking for different conditions where she will be able to better prove her worth and importance."
It's funny. I didn't take this quiz seriously but the result is pretty accurate.
http://www.colorquiz.com/quiz.php
Feels there are barriers between herself and the essential things she desires.
Your Stress Sources
"Needs to meet people who have the same high principals and values as himself, but finds the need unfulfilled. her need to feel dominate and superior leaves her feeling isolated and does not allow for her to give freely of himself. she would like to surrender and let go, but sees that as a weakness she must not give in to. Holding back will allow her to stand out for the crowd and earn a higher status, recognized by others as unique and important."
Your Restrained Characteristics
Giving more than she is getting back and feels misunderstood and unappreciated. Feels she is being forced into compromising and even her close relationships leave her feeling emotional distant. His arrogance causes her to take offense quickly. Only those closest to her know deep down she is sensitive and sentimental.
Your Desired Objective
"Seeking an escape from the things that are bringing her down, but is clinging to false hopes and pipe dreams."
Your Actual Problem
"Feeling unimportant in this current situation, and is looking for different conditions where she will be able to better prove her worth and importance."
It's funny. I didn't take this quiz seriously but the result is pretty accurate.
http://www.colorquiz.com/quiz.php
Monday, May 11, 2009
The Closure
This blog is full of me whined about my parents in-law, how their habits annoyed me much and ruined my daily routine from morning to night. I was unfair to them, actually, for telling only their 'bad' side. I once read stories of others have problems with their in-law parents. And you know what... compared to their devilish ones, my parents in-law is like angels, especially my mother in-law who is very caring and loving to all her family, including me, her daughter in-law.
Once when I was very busy working on my project, she helped me ironed all my laundries that had made her sweat much for Jakarta was very hot that day. My father in-law, beside the fact that nobody in this family that really understands him, is a kind guy, actually. He really loves food. Enjoying the gastronomic variations from day to day is one of the reasons he lives in this world. So he always assures his wife and children, even his dog to have food abundantly. Every morning, while I'm still living between two worlds, my conscious and unconscious world, it's his voice offering me a breakfast (yes, beside that regular noise pollutant, the TV).
In addition to their kindness, they never once mess with my personal problem with my husband. They respect our privacy. My mother in-law had her own bad experience with her mother in-law, who thought her son (adopted son) aka. my mother in-law's husband is like bank, conveniently asked for money or present. She complained a lot to her husband only to find that her husband was not on her side. Maybe this dreadful experience that has made her a great mother in-law, knows her boundaries and keeps a good relationship with me.
Now you know they are really kind isn't? How can you hate such a caring and nurturing people like them? And this exactly why I'm tormented being in the same home with them. It's a constant fighting inside me to acknowledge them as good people but hate them for being so noisy and mindless. In case they are bad people, it's so easy to be bitchy and complaining. But they are not.
Many times when my mood was ruined because of their 'weird' manners and I want to rage, suddenly my mother in-law acts innocently caring by offering me dinner or checking my condition. At this point I always think I must bury my complaint deeper, shut my mouth, and try so hard to neutralize all my anger. And this happens almost everyday, means I have this emotional struggle over and over that consume much of my energy and mind. And this really really tiring...
At the present time I just try to shut my mouth up for us still haven't any other options since we're in the middle of financial struggle. Furthermore, I can't change them either since it's their home and those are habits nurtured since their early years. What I can change is myself. I have to find the way to live with them peacefully because judging in our condition, I guess we still have to live with them in a couple of years ahead :(
Once when I was very busy working on my project, she helped me ironed all my laundries that had made her sweat much for Jakarta was very hot that day. My father in-law, beside the fact that nobody in this family that really understands him, is a kind guy, actually. He really loves food. Enjoying the gastronomic variations from day to day is one of the reasons he lives in this world. So he always assures his wife and children, even his dog to have food abundantly. Every morning, while I'm still living between two worlds, my conscious and unconscious world, it's his voice offering me a breakfast (yes, beside that regular noise pollutant, the TV).
In addition to their kindness, they never once mess with my personal problem with my husband. They respect our privacy. My mother in-law had her own bad experience with her mother in-law, who thought her son (adopted son) aka. my mother in-law's husband is like bank, conveniently asked for money or present. She complained a lot to her husband only to find that her husband was not on her side. Maybe this dreadful experience that has made her a great mother in-law, knows her boundaries and keeps a good relationship with me.
Now you know they are really kind isn't? How can you hate such a caring and nurturing people like them? And this exactly why I'm tormented being in the same home with them. It's a constant fighting inside me to acknowledge them as good people but hate them for being so noisy and mindless. In case they are bad people, it's so easy to be bitchy and complaining. But they are not.
Many times when my mood was ruined because of their 'weird' manners and I want to rage, suddenly my mother in-law acts innocently caring by offering me dinner or checking my condition. At this point I always think I must bury my complaint deeper, shut my mouth, and try so hard to neutralize all my anger. And this happens almost everyday, means I have this emotional struggle over and over that consume much of my energy and mind. And this really really tiring...
At the present time I just try to shut my mouth up for us still haven't any other options since we're in the middle of financial struggle. Furthermore, I can't change them either since it's their home and those are habits nurtured since their early years. What I can change is myself. I have to find the way to live with them peacefully because judging in our condition, I guess we still have to live with them in a couple of years ahead :(
Sunday, May 3, 2009
Love and Pain
This morning my sister woke up with swollen eyes. She cried yesterday because his boyfriend said he still thinking whether he still wanted their relationship or not (he has already said the sama statement twice before). It has hurt her feeling deeply since the marriage has already been in their plan for the last couple of months. But her boyfriend, younger about two years, seemed reluctant to end his single status. Read his blogs and we'll find he still has so many dreams to explore and sadly marriage is not his priority. My affection goes to my sister. She is kind, loving, and full of energy. To see her in such a heartbreaking moment has risen my sympathy.
Her boyfriend shows that he's still not mature enough to have a relationship with a woman. What kind of man who can publicly wrote romantically online about the relationship and then talk such a statement later? How her boyfriend treats her is a totally opposite from what my husband's. From the moment we begun our relationship, I never once doubt his feeling to me. Inside his rather quite aggressive personalities like easily got pissed of or talking in a loud voice, he gives me his 100% commitment for me during our relationship. He never shows any hesitation in pouring me with his affection and always being there everytime I need him. A statement like, 'I'm not quite sure I still want in this relationship' never said in our history.
Yes, our relationship is not immune of the threat of separation. Once, while planning our wedding, we had this big fight that I thought I couldn't stand anymore his aggressive behaviour. And he said to me that we'd better cancel the wedding if I suffered being with him. But at that time, I've already loved him much and thought I couldn't imagine living without him. So here I am, being his wife now. And twice, when we had married, we had another big fight. He just so angry that he said we'd better separate (again). I was so fed up with his inability to control his emotion that the word of separation was so easily threw out from his mouth. I said to him that he didn't think this marriage as a lifetime commitment that he had been so easily used a divorce as a threat everytime we fought. FYI, I never use this word no matter how angry I am. I think this word, 'divorce' is like a condemnation word that best used when you really mean it.
And it's what he has done after the fights that differs him from the other irresponsible men in this world. He's not only says sorry to me, hug me, and wipe my tears, but also CHANGES. He shows me he cares with my feeling by being a better person for me. He has improves a lot from himself at the beginning of our relationship. I'm very proud of him because he does what he has to do. He's not a type of saccharine sweets man who talks romantically, but he shows his love by doing what needed to do by a great husband. For example, today I'm very busy and he does the ironing though it's my job. Or he never eats the last cake before assured that I don't want it. It's a small things in everyday life that's underestimated by many husband but valued by an exhausted wife.
Sometimes, when I got angry with him, I thought, why I want to be with this man, this fury ball who easily blown up by his own rage? How fool I am to stay with this bomb. But then I realized that it's his only flaw in compared to his great husband materials such as 100% love, responsibily, commitment, unselfishness, plus the ability to accept one's failure and changes. These are the qualities I considered when I chose him as my husband beside his imperfection. And I'm quite lucky since these qualities even improving when he's already been my husband.
So, in observing my circumstances, compared to the love life of my sister, I may happily and surely say, 'Yes, I'm a proud and lucky wife to have him as my Great Husband.'
Her boyfriend shows that he's still not mature enough to have a relationship with a woman. What kind of man who can publicly wrote romantically online about the relationship and then talk such a statement later? How her boyfriend treats her is a totally opposite from what my husband's. From the moment we begun our relationship, I never once doubt his feeling to me. Inside his rather quite aggressive personalities like easily got pissed of or talking in a loud voice, he gives me his 100% commitment for me during our relationship. He never shows any hesitation in pouring me with his affection and always being there everytime I need him. A statement like, 'I'm not quite sure I still want in this relationship' never said in our history.
Yes, our relationship is not immune of the threat of separation. Once, while planning our wedding, we had this big fight that I thought I couldn't stand anymore his aggressive behaviour. And he said to me that we'd better cancel the wedding if I suffered being with him. But at that time, I've already loved him much and thought I couldn't imagine living without him. So here I am, being his wife now. And twice, when we had married, we had another big fight. He just so angry that he said we'd better separate (again). I was so fed up with his inability to control his emotion that the word of separation was so easily threw out from his mouth. I said to him that he didn't think this marriage as a lifetime commitment that he had been so easily used a divorce as a threat everytime we fought. FYI, I never use this word no matter how angry I am. I think this word, 'divorce' is like a condemnation word that best used when you really mean it.
And it's what he has done after the fights that differs him from the other irresponsible men in this world. He's not only says sorry to me, hug me, and wipe my tears, but also CHANGES. He shows me he cares with my feeling by being a better person for me. He has improves a lot from himself at the beginning of our relationship. I'm very proud of him because he does what he has to do. He's not a type of saccharine sweets man who talks romantically, but he shows his love by doing what needed to do by a great husband. For example, today I'm very busy and he does the ironing though it's my job. Or he never eats the last cake before assured that I don't want it. It's a small things in everyday life that's underestimated by many husband but valued by an exhausted wife.
Sometimes, when I got angry with him, I thought, why I want to be with this man, this fury ball who easily blown up by his own rage? How fool I am to stay with this bomb. But then I realized that it's his only flaw in compared to his great husband materials such as 100% love, responsibily, commitment, unselfishness, plus the ability to accept one's failure and changes. These are the qualities I considered when I chose him as my husband beside his imperfection. And I'm quite lucky since these qualities even improving when he's already been my husband.
So, in observing my circumstances, compared to the love life of my sister, I may happily and surely say, 'Yes, I'm a proud and lucky wife to have him as my Great Husband.'
