Messy, Messy Girl

This evening we went to our friend's wedding. To match my black pants, I looked for my black satin high heels. It's my favourite shoes. Besides it's the most expensive shoes I've ever bought, it took months of surveying almost all prestigious malls in my city only to find it: a pair of perfect elegant black high heels exactly like I pictured in my mind. And now, it's lost. I forget totally when the last time I wore them. I called my mom to ask whether I left it behind in my hometown, but she was pretty sure that I have taken it back to Jakarta. I've searched for them in all my shoes boxes, but I still haven't found it.

The lost of my favourite high heels gloomed me instantly. It's quite hurt because in my present condition, buying shoes that expensive is almost impossible since I still struggle to pay my daily allowance. It's not just the shoes. Many of my belongings I bought in the past become very precious for me today because I can't splurge my money anymore on 'not to necessary' items. And fashion stuffs are one of them.

Maybe I'm just too pesimism lately. Being in the hard condition can affect the way you looking at one problem. I keep saying to myself, in case my shoes do really lost, I can buy another beautiful shoes. Don't be so pathetic thinking that this hard condition will last forever and I never be able to afford another one. Beside that, though my satin black shoes indeed beautiful, they hurt my feet because they were too tight.

Find a self excuse, huh? Well at least I learn how to manage and store my stuffs carefully. I've been too lazy and irresposible to my own belongings. One hurtful moment will make me 'kapok' (means 'don't want to do it anymore').

Notes: Finally I found the pairs under plastic and paper bags in the corner of my room. My maid mistakenly placed them inside. It's the only place I missed to browse! :(

Just My Another Account

It's my college pal, the first person who taught me an internet literacy. We sat together at the college computer lab, made my first account in the virtual world. It's yahoo account, under my real name. After got more and more familiar with the internet world, I got bored instantly to have my e-mail under my real name. I started to make some accounts under different created name for some reasons. Since I have so many of them, I forgot either the user name and the password. And I keep creating and creating. Only a few of them that last till now. The last contenders are accounts that used for business and yahoo messenger.

So, it's just another account. I created this as my place to share my ups and downs (before I've already owned the similar account, but I forgot neither the user name, nor the password). Hopefully it can function just the way intended before.

Hopefully... ;)